OCEANGHOSTS.


I go by the name of Adam.
1989 is my year.
Earthborn.
My life is worth living.

+36° 59’ 1.21”, -119° 52’ 22.72”
+41° 33’ 28.27”, -71° 17’ 53.36”

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 creeps


You used to smoke your cigarettes
between your
middle
and
ring fingers.
I always wonder if you still do.
I can picture the smoke
twisting and turning in your hands.
I can smell the cloves and
I can hear the sound
of the embers crackling with every drag.
I always wanted to feel like one of your cigarettes
on those hazy mornings of winter.
A reason to get up in the morning.
Something to compliment your spiced coffee.
Something to put your lips on because you liked the taste.
And maybe that’s exactly what I was to you.
A temporary wake up
that was terrible for your health.

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Then I started to miss her.
That’s when I knew I was fucked.

I want to know
when you last spoke my name.

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I fucking need to stop reading my old notebooks. 

She sat next to me.
Our arms grazed,
and I swore she could feel
the chill that hit my skin.

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I once read somewhere
that each time you recall a moment from your past
it’s never remembered exactly the same way
as it was before.
We assume that during moments of
recollection
we go through an organized filing system
and pull out
and put back
these memories whenever we wish.
But it doesn’t work that way.
With every
reminisce
and haunting of her voice,
she fades.
The memory is imperfect.
That’s why I write about her.
It’s like I’m falling from a tree,
and I’m trying to grab onto any branch
in order to keep myself from going blind from the impact of
never seeing her again.

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knivesinmyeyes:

knivesinmyeyes

knivesinmyeyes:

August 16th, 2014

I remember that dress.
The blue one with the polka dots
that ended up on my floor.
I remember the texture
under my fingertips
where the fabric
shifted to skin.

My bones are cracking.
I feel it.
Hairline vines of
winter reopen.
But they’re early.
The leaves haven’t fallen.
And the winds are still.
Two years of seasons
brought me names that won’t leave my tongue.
I think I’m snowbound for cold this time around.
I’ll consider this ache
fair warning.

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I think you’re still lost,
and I always thought I’d be
the one to save you.
I still feel as if
a fraction of myself will always be
dedicated to carrying you out of your
Hell.

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I think I’m chasing sadness.
I spent so much time away from it
that I lost all of my inspiration.
I barely wrote anything.
I can’t even remember
the last time I touched those
cold strings on my guitar.
I’m not even sure if my voice is still in key
like it was during those dark days of
twenty thirteen.
For the last year
I’ve been pulling myself out of this hole I dug
that I never even wanted to leave in the first place.
I feel so fucked up,
wanting to have back what destroyed me in the first place.
I need these pages filled.
I need my vocal cords raw from screaming out your name.
I need my heart beating out of my chest
like it did when it lost you.

I can’t stand the feeling
of burying you
under another woman’s body.

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“Pick that shit up.”
she said,
pointing at the pile of
sentences and
half-scratched ink
that never made it to you
or my trash bin.

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You broke the parts of me that I liked the most.
I don’t think I’ll ever forgive you for that.

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